There are some times that one never looks back upon or tries to recollect. They seem to be getting erased from the timeline as soon as they become history. Such times constitute the majority of one's life.
But then we find some days that never vanish from our memories. These days leave a permanent emboss on our lives and are remembered forever. 2010 has been full of such days and this year, as a whole, has been the most memorable one for me.
2010 started off with anxiety, hope and uncertainty. I was waiting eagerly for the outcome of my application for a scholarship that was going to completely determine my career goals and aspirations. Getting selected for this internship program turned out to be a dream coming true. Frankly speaking, I had never imagined I would have an opportunity to visit a foreign country while studying at Bachelors' level and that too by means of a scholarship paid by a foreign government agency. Even talking of such things was like talking of some arbitrary out-of-the-reach phenomenon. But this actually happened and I was left amazed, dumbstruck, completely bewildered and pleasantly 'paralyzed' ('surprised' seems quite inaccurate).
The 3-month stay in Germany was nothing less than a fairy-tale. I could actually see and experience things that I had only heard of and seen on television - the glitter of Eiffel tower, the serenity of Swiss Alps, the richness of Italian history and culture and the technology of Germans. What I did in these 90 days?? I was doing the following- living independently, cooking my own dinner EVERY NIGHT, making some amazingly close friends, having endless hours of chatting sessions with them (some drunken ones...I confess :p), acquiring new skills (technical as well as non-technical ;)), having one more failed attempt to find love, but most importantly- being able to decide upon my 'intended' path in life. I owe a lot to all those who made this happen and believed in me and supported me throughout.
After returning, it was the pay-back time! I couldn't do very well at studies, partly because of that f***ing mosquito who gave me dengue and partly because my own laziness. However I am happy that it didn't end as bad as I had guessed (8.23 is kinda okay!). Done with my university applications, now I am pinning upon my hopes again to get into a good college and a course of my choice.
Its kind of a similar beginning for 2011. The anxiety is back, the hopes are high and uncertainty is in the air. The only difference is that I am a lot more confident about myself this time and the fear of failure is not in existence anymore. I am living my dream and I shall always be...
